First Weigh in

Well, I was weighed in on Tuesday and lost 2 pounds. Not earth shattering but at least the scale is going in the right direction. I definitely need more aerobic exercise (besides cleaning which I could do more of LOL) to lose faster. They apparently don't like you to lose more than 1-2 pounds a week on Weight Watchers. The rebel in me doesn't like that and I hope I lose 3 pounds a week LOL.

In the week and two days I've been on the program, I've lost a lot of my sugar cravings which rocks!! Sugar makes my muscles stiff for some reason so I feel much better already.

So, 2 pounds down, 108 to go!!!

Swati, what is going on with you?

My Protective Inner Child

So I've been following the Weight Watchers plan for six days now. I'm guardedly optimistic about the weigh in tomorrow. I know that you just never know, sometimes you can follow a diet and not lose weight for a while. All I know is that I'm sticking with the plan either way!! I hope there is a decent drop (each week).

I've been doing some soul searching and feel my extra layer of fat I'm carrying is related to inner child issues. It's like a protector I've put around myself that is isolating me from the rest of the world. I tend to be a person who chose 'fixer-uppers' as romantic partners. Always seeing their potential and ignoring where they were at the time. After my divorce, it was like I was done. I didn't want to go through that again. And, because I had young children at the time I didn't want to subject them to my penchant for fixer uppers (a big pet peeve of mine is people who put dysfunctional partners before their children). So, the days turned into weeks, which turned into months, which turned into years, and now here I am 110 pounds overweight (see picture below).

I've done a lot of inner work and now it's time to tell my inner child that I'm a big girl now and can hold my own. No man is going to come in and take over my life - my boundaries are strong now. My compassion is still strong but I know that I will never keep someone dysfunctional in my life just because I feel sorry for them or that they need me more than someone who has it together. I've come to realize that Divinity has sent me some people to help but that it's not necessary to marry them LOL.

So how did my inner child gain so much control? I'm not sure. I think somewhere along the way I just gave up and stopped taking good care of myself. Isn't that what a alot of moms and wives do? We channel all our energy into caring for everyone else and then don't have enough energy or interest in nurturing ourselves. And, who do we admire? Those mothers and wives who take care of their family and themselves! Well, time to change all that for me! I'm worth it!!!!!!

I subscribe to TUT Messages from the universe http://www.tut.com/and the message today is so appropriate to what I just wrote! I love it when synchronicity like this happens!!! Here is the message I received today:

"If you had been born knowing how beautiful, deserving, and important you truly are, Janice, by this time in your life you'd probably be worth billions of dollars, have thousands of friends, and own businesses around the world, but then... you wouldn't be anything like the Janice Olson we know and love today.And believe me, when I say "we," there are a lot of us.

All in favor...

The Universe

P.S. You're a special treasure, Janice, and all of life's trimmings are well on their way. "

What a wonderful message for me and all of us!!!!!!!!

Here are my before pictures!! I hope to post my progress in words and pictures. Tomorrow I'll post what happened at the weigh in!!

I'm the blond on the right. Look at how my shirt in the back just keeps going out - that's because of my big butt!!

Here's one that shows just how dumpy I feel. My legs and butt are a big problem area. Only recently has my stomach joined in the party!!!!!

My first post here

Hi everyone!

We are Janice and Swati. And we have finally decided that we are not going to be overweight anymore :-).

I have joined Curves, and have done 4 days of my exercises so far. Janice is on day 4 of her Weight Watchers! How cool is that Janice? 4 and 4. 44. The angels are here to help.

Janice is an AWESOME angel reader...meaning, she connects to your angels and gives you a reading...your angels' guidance to you, and answers to your questions. Her site is http://www.shininglite.com. She is also a fabulous web designer!

I am a jewelry designer and my website is http://www.FleurViolette.com. It is still under construction. The "constructor" is my hubby and he is taking his own sweet time.

I am turning 42 on the 19th of this month. And I am about 180 lbs at 5' height...so all I can say is, I can barely carry my own weight around now. My knees hurt, my back hurts, and many other health issues have come up, and I seriously want to lose this weight and get healthy. I need to lose about 80 lbs.

I have a good exercise program now (Curves), but not an eating program yet. I usually eat like there is no tomorrow. Its not that I am hungry either. So appetite suppresants will not help. I eat because I feel this weird feeling inside. Like I am trying to fill some pitless void inside. And I have no idea what that void is. So I can't fill it with the right stuff :-). I don't know why I need to stuff myself constantly. It provides some comfort, but I don't know what the discomfort is. And its not as if I feel good after eating. Usually I pig out so much that I feel sick after eating. But I still have that horrible need to stuff myself. I hope I can figure this one out.

So here is how I look today on the 12th of June 2009:


And I don't like what I see. And no, I am not that cute toddler :-P. I'm the one hugging him...his mum. That's my hubby behind me. I have a daughter too (not in this picture), and all the three of them are slim, with fantastic metabolism!

I will take my picture next month on the same day and post here...and hopefully there will be a change in me. A positive one. :-)

And I will journal my progress here regularly. We will share this blog at some point with everyone else.

So this is Day 4 of being on Weight Watchers and I love it! It was such a wake-up call to see pictures from my 29th high school reunion. Seeing myself really made me realize that I don't want to be this unhealthy anymore!!!!!!!

Hugs,
Janice